Battle cry of the bipolar
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Confusion
You are rude
You are unkind
You are mean
You are dishonorable
How am I this?
I mean to be calm
I mean to be peaceful
I mean to be kind
I mean to be nice
But it just doesn’t
Come out right
How am I failing?
Why am I failing?
Where am I failing?
When am I failing?
Why does it happen
When it matters most?
All I want is to be me
But who am I?
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Thank you Wrath, I will be the first to admit that there are really bad days. You just have to try to listen to people, thank God for the medicene, as much as I hate having so many pills, and the therapy. My family gets tired of the mood swings. They try to understand. So your friend has my hopes that she finds peace with this disease, maybe one day they will find a cure.
I really hope they can do something about it soon. She suffered terribly because of it. No one wanted to give the benefit of the doubt. Even the doctors would run out of patience and bounce her. She was in bad shape.
It can be that way. I have known people who had already built a life when their bipolar was triggered, and they were trying to keep it. But the hardest is trying to build a life when you have the stigma associated with an active case of bipolar. I went through childhood with bipolar, but it was activated by situations caused by my ex husband. Yeah, that hit me too. For full blown bipolar, not just some symptoms, it has to be activated. Usually by severe depression. This is the newest theory. Maybe if this theory is true, we can look, and catch the victoms before it hits.
Really so sorry, the best I can do is bump you up all around, maybe make you feel some better. I had over 300 hits on one hub alone today because of that girl and I am down 2 points. I read on one of your hubs here she said she liked fighting. My best to you. Polly
Thank you very much Pollyannalana. I fight with this every day. All I can continue to do is continue to fight.
Hi, rasenstars. Strong poem. I hope you feel better. :)
I wrote this poem when I had just hurt someone that I cared about. Wraith hit it on the head. I was cycling pretty quickly. The fun thing is that I just had to wait a while and I would cycle to feeling better.
Wrath Warbone Level 2 Commenter 21 months ago
I had a girlfriend who was bipolar. She was a rapid cycler and would rage sometimes altough she never hit anyone. Other times she was so depressed but nothing would cheer her up until the cycle completed. It was sad how people talked like she didn't deserve their patience or understanding. She had been mistreated as a child and had a beautiful soul, but people did not see that. She worked very hard to get well and to treat others better but she was up against too much. But she kept herself well groomed and made it through the day and she prayed a lot. When things got too bad between her and the neighbors she would move to another state. She suffered terribly. I hope she is well now.